Again, it has been ages (7 months to be exact) since I have shared anything here. It feels really weird that it has actually been so long because not a day went by that I didn’t contemplate sitting down to write but ended up putting it off. Looking back it means I procrastinated for 7 whole months, eish…that’s not healthy. Anyway, I have missed it so much (and I have missed you), so much has happened I don’t know where to start. Well, the long and short of it is this:
I STARTED TEACHING (it was part-time, my business wasn’t doing well so I needed the money..don’t ask…it’s complicated), I HATED IT AND QUIT. AFTER THAT I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL AND LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT. OH, BY THE WAY, AND I CHANGED MY CAREER, TOTALLY…
These past few months have been in themselves an eye-opening experience. I got to experience what it is to wake up every morning and go to a job that you hate only because that is what is expected of you (and you need the money). I got to work with people who are deceitful, manipulative, and ungrateful, who will make you feel like you are all that is wrong with the world. I got to a point where I cried all the time for no reason because I was in such a negative environment and felt depressed all the time. THEN ONE DAY I JUST GOT TIRED OF BEING SUCKER PUNCHED ALL THE TIME AND QUIT. I disappointed a lot of people but I made a choice that it was better them than me.
I decided there and then that I needed a career and attitude makeover. I was tired of being a door mat doing what the world expected me to do without any consideration of what I wanted. I wanted to do me…make money, see the world and change the world on my own terms. And so after quitting the teaching gig, I closed down my shop ,went back to school, and trained in a totally different field and I am loving it.
I have grown up a lot in these few months (and my age had nothing to do with it). I have seen the best and worst of people and have learnt that they have no power over me or my destiny. I am who I am. I have also learnt that the world has so much to offer and sometimes we limit ourselves to the obvious because we don’t really sit down and think outside the box. Life is too short to conform to the standards set for us by others. I loved my shop and yet closing it down for a while has been liberating because it has allowed me the room to breathe and explore how the second time around I can make the business flourish.
We can’t be afraid of change. You may feel very secure in the pond you are in, but if you never venture out of it, you will never know that there is such a thing as an ocean, a sea. Holding on to something that is good for you now, maybe the very reason why you don’t have something better. C. Joy Bell